{"id":36,"date":"2025-07-04T13:16:05","date_gmt":"2025-07-04T13:16:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/intanyusof.com\/journal\/?p=36"},"modified":"2025-07-04T13:29:22","modified_gmt":"2025-07-04T13:29:22","slug":"i-noticed-ive-changed-a-little-maybe","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/intanyusof.com\/journal\/2025\/07\/04\/i-noticed-ive-changed-a-little-maybe\/","title":{"rendered":"I Noticed I\u2019ve Changed (A Little, Maybe)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Since I moved to a new workplace, I\u2019ve noticed a few\u2026 shifts in how I behave. Nothing groundbreaking, I\u2019m still me, just slightly less emotionally constipated, I guess?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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  1. I don\u2019t curse as much anymore.
    I used to cuss like a rempit whenever I was alone, especially when certain names popped into my head; people who wronged me, stepped on me, made life unnecessarily heavy. Now it’s just silence. Or maybe just a quiet, annoyed inhale. I don’t think this is character development. Maybe I’m just tired. <\/li>\n\n\n\n
  2. I rarely honk at idiotic drivers.
    This is a big one. I used to honk like my car had a personality disorder, especially at those slow drivers chilling in the fast lane like they\u2019re in a spa. These days, I just breathe and potong kiri kemudian pancung. Maybe throw a quick side-eye.<\/li>\n\n\n\n
  3. I don\u2019t cry alone that often anymore.
    Before the move, crying was basically part of my daily schedule. Wake up, remember my sad little life, cry a bit. Night time? Cry again, just to make sure the emotional quota\u2019s met. Now the tears haven\u2019t shown up in a while. Not sure if they\u2019re on leave or I\u2019m actually okay.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n\n\n\n

    Not saying life is perfect now. But I think I\u2019m a little lighter. Or at least, I\u2019m not dragging the same chains around every day.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    Anyway. That\u2019s it. Just something I noticed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    \n

    I\u2019m the one I should love in this world<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    My shining self, my precious soul<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    Only now do I realize, so I love me<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    Though a bit lacking, I\u2019m so beautifulI\u2019m the one I should love<\/p>\n\n\n\n

    BTS Jin – Epiphany<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

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